I am sitting in my office which I share with 3 other people, it’s a little past 12pm, I have my ear piece on, listening to a few boring songs left on my phone, with several thoughts running thru my mind… thoughts bordering majorly on ‘my next step’ in life, with work, my career, my life in general. I have lots of ideas but I am not even sure where I’m going with some of them half the time… hmmm (deep breath).
I have not really done any thing productive today aside taking a couple off files upstairs … if that counts for anything that is..(Thinking)….. Now did I forget to mention, I am a youth corper, serving in a government office? Yeah that I am... and also a person with dreams, ambitions and future aspirations too… by the way that future is NOW though it doesn’t look like it yet. I know you are wondering why I am going on and on with my thoughts and confusing analogy of this day so far… I am too... but believe me I am going somewhere with this.
When youth service came up finally after a long wait for call up... I was not so excited but I looked forward to an opportunity to do something finally with myself in the cooperate world. I tried to influence my posting and eventually got to where I am serving now, yeah you might say serves me right but before you judge me let me tell u why I did this… now I wanted a better shot at life… I wasn’t thinking about serving in a place where I would practice my course of study, no I wasn’t, my thoughts were on 2 things...
first I was thinking about getting a government office where I would eventually be retained and get a permanent job, yeah that’s because I know so many corpers or former corpers who are still out there ‘job hunting after years of service’ that’s a bleak future to look forward to, don’t u think…, secondly I considered a place I would be paid a little more than the usual so I could pay my immediate bills and not have to bug people for financial aid. I wanted independence... which I was already living in considerably even while in school... Independence from my parents financially and the society at large…
I did not major in a professional course per say and the economy in Nigeria today is liken to a pool of sharks... if you are not a doctor, or something that grand… you are like a tilapia amongst sharks… Everybody is blood thirsty and nobody is waiting in line. I had to think about my future and fast….. Now I am in a government office working… or rather wasting my time and brains… no hope of getting retained…. Too much politicking in the office… and I am wondering how I can make the best out of this….
I had a chat with some corpers the other day and I realise a lot of us have similar situations and fears... And it left me even more depressed… but I am no quitter… ‘smiles’. When I started writing this piece, I was confused and without direction with my tots... I still am now, even worse than I was… I know you are wondering what you are reading this for… to tell you the truth I am too……
To be continued……..
By Alero Sandra
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